Saturday, August 20, 2011

are you an only child?

Okay, I am an only child. I have always wished that I could have had siblings. Of course, I enjoyed my parents attention only on me when I was little. But from the teens on, I dreamed of a brother or a sister. Now at 47 I am certainly over it.

Now, I come to terms with the responsibility of being an only child. Of taking care of my parents as their caregiver, financial advisor and their loving daughter. It's really hard sometimes but I am truly grateful. As it has shown me how to love deeper and on many levels especially with my own family.

Are you an only child too? How do you handle it all? Are you lonely sometimes, too? I'd love to hear how you deal with it everyday.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Where is the state of my heart?

In the midst of all the suffering around the world, I'm in constant search of PEACE. Looking for PEACE from Mother Earth through the sweet sounds of the birds and expectation of beauty from the flowers that are soon coming. I also look for PEACE from the people around me, and even though that is hard these days as tension fills the air around the house a lot, if I put my mind (and intent) on it, I find it.

I find PEACE when I look into my mother's small, but sparkling eyes as she asks me what day it is for the 12th time. I find PEACE when I connect with my father in weirdest way....sometimes it's just bumping our foreheads together. I find PEACE when I slow down and look at my two children and confirm to myself how amazing they have become. I find PEACE in my husband when, after a brief spat with my son, he honestly confirms to me that he wishes could just be more patient and will try next time.

It's all these moments in my life that help me deal with, well, life. With all the pain in the world today, we must look into our own state of hearts and assess.

Please share with me, if you want, where's your state of heart.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Just another Thursday

I wasn't really awake today all day. Not sure why, especially since yesterday, with the start of Ash Wednesday, I told myself this would be a period of truthfulness and a fresh beginning. Maybe it was the rainy day. Maybe its just my over-worked daily grind. Whatever it is -- I hope tomorrow will be better.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Fruit salad making for our local Fish Fry sale

Finally it's time to START...

I love this time of the year. The gray sky turns yellow with the sun and like lightning, we all think it's Spring! It is also the Lenten season -- a period of 40 days that really inspires me to look within, try some changes and then, wait and listen. Some years I feel like (almost) a new woman and other years my focus is refreshed.

This year, after much thought about what I needed to change, I realized that I'm happy with me. The only change to come is with me writing. I want to write about what I feel, how the prayers affect me, how the music of the little birds outside my window make me feel all warm and cozy inside. This will be one of parts of my Lent promises. The others are no ice cream or soda (I always feel it's important to give up at least one thing!)

So, I thank you for stopping by and I look forward to reading some of your changes.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

a simple return

Today, on a beautiful sunny morning, I have decided to return to blogging. I will push the fears away and just keep you informed. I feel very blessed this morning with a wonderful husband, two amazing children and the love of my parents near.

Enjoy your day, enjoy your day......